Hello, Second Trimester!

It’s hard to believe that we are finally in the second trimester!! The last 14 weeks have felt so long, but have also seemed to fly by! I am happy to report that I am feeling A LOT better! I no longer have morning sickness and have gotten a HUGE energy boost. Right now my biggest complaints are itchy ankles, restless legs and back pain. We did the Panorama test during our 11th week and are happy to report Baby came back as low risk in all categories for chromosomal abnormalities! Yes, we do know if Baby is a boy or girl and we even have a name! We have shared this with our family and friends, however stay tuned for the big announcement! 

  
I had some difficulties in my first trimester with the Crinone. We had to stop it around 9 weeks due to extreme cervical inflammation and irritation. When we went to our first OB appointment during Week 11, the doctor noticed a spot on my cervix that concerned her. She even brought in another doctor to look at it. We are awaiting the results of my Pap and go back for our next appointment in a week. We are hoping that the spot is simply residual inflammation from the Crinone, because when I say my cervix was inflamed I mean it! It was sticking out. For real. If the spot is still there and the same size next week there is the potential I will need a cervical biopsy (again!). I was assured this won’t affect the pregnancy, however it will cause me to bleed A LOT due to increased blood flow down there. I have been putting this in the back of my mind because my first cervical biopsy was a very traumatic experience and if we need to do one, it will be safer for the baby and I if I am sedated. 

This weekend we were able to get some housework done. We planted a tree out front and painted the nursery. A friend of mine will be coming this week to paint a mural for us. We are doing a Lion King theme. My mother-in-law bought us the chair for the nursery, my parents bought the crib and we bought a chifferrobe this weekend. All these pieces should be in town for pickup sometime this week. I am taking advantage of feeling good while I can! Who knows when I will start feeling tired again. 

This is the crib we chose from Babies at Us:

  
Zoey is doing well after her amputation. She is far more active than I thought she would be. She goes back on Friday to have her staples taken out. She is walking and running and even doing stairs. Sometimes she wants to do more than we would like so we have to keep an eye on her. It was a great decision to amputate her leg. She is back to her normal self. Her personality is back and we can tell she is in far less pain. 

   
 
I am finally starting to show a little so I think I will be doing weekly bumpdates going forward. We also bought a Fetal Doppler and I have been able to listen is Baby’s heartbeat a few times. I found it fairly quickly and was pleased with myself! I think that is all the news for now! 

Our Dog Zoey

I have been quiet on the blogging front lately because there has been a lot going on and there aren’t enough hours in the day. On March 7th, I came home from work and something didn’t feel right with our dog Zoey. She is a 100lb mix who is 6 years old. We adopted her last year after her previous owners couldn’t care for her anymore. She has part Chow and Rottweiler in here that we know of. She had been limping for about a month to six weeks however nothing was swollen and she wouldn’t cry or whimper when we touched her paw and leg. We checked every day and nothing seemed abnormal. We assumed she had sprained something and it would get better with time. But it didn’t. 

  
When I came home and I saw her, my mommy instinct told me something wasn’t right. It was late afternoon and I called our vet to see if they could see her. We brought her in and they did some X-rays. My sirens went off when the vet wouldn’t tell us what he saw. He said he sent them stat to a radiologist and we should know the next morning. We were instructed to bring her back the next day after work. Nothing else was said. At work the next day, I received the phone call from the vet that she has osteosarcoma (bone cancer) in her front left wrist. We brought her in for blood work to check kidney and liver functions before they prescribed pain medications. All of her blood work came back normal and we left the vet with pain meds, a copy of her X-rays and a referral to a pet oncologist. 

On March 11, I was admitted into the hospital for kidney stones and kidney infection. My mom came to be with me so my husband could take Zoey to her appointment. I refused to reschedule it. From everything I have read, bone cancer is very aggressive and every day counts. The pet oncologist did some additional X-rays of her chest to see if the cancer had spread to her lungs. He also took a urine sample to check to make sure it wasn’t a fungal infection. It took about a week for all of her tests to come back and her lungs were clear and she did not have a fungal infection. Cancer it is. 

Today, March 25th, a little over two weeks since we found out about her cancer, we had an appointment with a surgeon to discuss amputation of the leg. We expected to discuss our options and potentially schedule her for next week. Her pain has been increasing this week. She didn’t eat for two days and we had to adjust her pain medications. She pants and drools a lot which the vet says is nausea from the pain. She almost completely doesn’t put weight on her leg anymore and she has also been sleeping in different places. When we explained all of this to the surgeon, they only had one surgery scheduled today, so we decided to go ahead and amputate her leg today. As I type this, she is in surgery. We should get a call in a couple of hours and then we should be able to bring her home tomorrow. 

Initially the idea of amputating her leg horrified me. I thought it was cruel. After a lot of Internet research, watching YouTube videos of Tripawds, many tears and a lot of soul searching, we came to the conclusion to amputate her leg. We know this is NOT a cure. Unfortunately there is no cure for osteosarcoma. Once it has progressed to be diagnosed, it has metastasized. While her X-rays didn’t show any mets at the moment, they are there and just microscopic. We chose to amputate her leg to improve her quality of life. She will no longer be in excruciating pain. The recovery is actually quite quick. The next few days will be difficult as we will have to help her learn to walk with three legs and regain her balance, but we know she will be in far less pain. Typically dogs are back to their normal selves within 14 days and are far more active then they were because they no long have the pain of the cancer. 

After amputation we have to make the decision if we want to give her chemo. Since she doesn’t have any mets, chemo will give her a few extra months. Even with amputation and chemo only 50% make it one year past their initial diagnosis. We don’t know how she will react to the chemo and want to make sure we give her the best quality of life possible. Additionally, since I am pregnant we will have to be extremely careful with the chemo medications and my ability to be around her while she is doing a round. From the research I have been able to do, it is best for me not to touch her or be around her for 72 hours after chemo. In which case I would stay at my parents during that time so there is no harm to the baby. There is a lot to think about. We have about two weeks to decide. 

If you are the praying kind, please send up a prayer for our sweet Zoey that she gets through surgery successfully and she adapts quickly to her new way of life. 

   
    
    
 

Hello from the Hospital

Yes, I sang Adele out loud while typing the title

I started writing this post after I was admitted to the hospital on 3/11 however the pain meds quickly zonked me out. Those things are no joke. I am now home snuggled up under my Minion blanket with one of my kitties. I will try and make this as coherent as possible however I am still on pain medication. 

Friday 6 am – I was fast asleep dreaming of taking a family vacation when I was in high school. In my dream I began having severe back pains and no matter how I tried to get comfortable in the van the pain kept getting worse. I woke up and the pain was real. Immediately I knew what was happening. I have had kidney stones before and the pain is unmistakeable. I went to the bathroom and called to Chris. The pain increased in intensity quickly, I got clammy and became overcome with nausea. In the past, I have waited out the stones but I was concerned about stress on the baby so we decided to go to the ER. Chris have Zoey (our dog) her medicine, took her out and then we were in the car. While driving, we of course got stuck in traffic. The pain became overwhelmingly intense again and I became vomiting pure bile, which in turn exacerbated the pain. I ended up wetting myself due to the intensity of heaving. 

Friday 7 am – arrived at ER and already taken back to a room. We chose to go to a quiet hospital across town because of their lack of ER wait (this fact will become important later). I was given a gown and told to undress from the waist up. Due to wetting myself, I decided to just wear the gown only. They took my blood pressure: 146/94! I was definitely in pain. The doctor came in and we discussed my pain and nausea. I was hooked up to an IV and given fluids, Zofran and Morphine and I peed in a cup. Since I am pregnant, I couldn’t have a CT scan which is the gold standard for diagnosing kidney stones. They did an ultrasound of my kidneys to see if they could find a stone (they didn’t) and did an ultrasound to check on baby (heart rate 157 and wiggling around). The doctor wasn’t surprised that the ultrasound didn’t show a stone as that is a poor diagnostic tool for kidney stones.  

Friday 8 am – We called my mom to come and be with me at the hospital as Chris had to drive back across town to pick up Zoey and drove back to take her to her pet oncologist appointment (she was diagnosed earlier this week…stayed tuned for a post). Due to the urgency of her diagnosis, I did not want to reschedule and had Chris take her without me. 

Friday 9 am – Urinalysis came back as positive for an infection. I was expecting this. Whenever I have gotten stones in the past I always have a kidney infection. I don’t get normal UTI symptoms so I don’t know I have one until it causes a stone. The ER Doctor placed a call to my OB to see what they wanted to do with me since this hospital doesn’t like to touch you if you are even a day pregnant.

  
Friday 10 am – the ER Doctor spoke with the on call OB at the office and they said they wanted to treat me with oral antibiotics unless I couldn’t keep them down, in which case I would have to be transferred to my OB’s hospital, admitted, and treated with IV antibiotics. The nurse gave me a second liter of fluids, IV Reglan, IV Morphine and an oral antibiotic. 

Friday 10:30 am – During this time I was calling back and forth with Chris to see how Zoey’s appointment was going…then BAM! Back to vomiting pure bile. The antibiotic pill didn’t come up, but just the fact I was still vomiting meant I would not be going home. 

Friday 11 am – Paperwork was started for me to be transferred to my OB’s hospital and we had to wait on a room placement. 

Friday 12 pm – We had a room assigned to us at the other hospital. The nurse called EMS for transport. We were originally given a choice between my mom taking me or going by ambulance. If I went by private car my IV would have to be removed and I was still on fluids and medicine. The doctor then took the choice away and said I would be going by ambulance. New adventure! Never been in an ambulance before.  

Friday 12:45 pm – EMS arrived. The pain was coming back but we decided to wait until I got to the other hospital to see what my OB wanted to do. Off I went in the ambulance. It was a strange experience but the EMTs were super nice. 

Friday 1:25 pm – Arrived in room at OB’s hospital. Room was really, really nice! I was greeted with the nurse’s aide who asked if I would like some food. She offered me a grilled cheese sandwich and chicken noodle soup. I took them but only ended up having a few bits due to the nausea. My mom arrived about 20 mins after I did so I wasn’t alone too long. 

  
Friday 2 – 4 pm – During this time I was distracted because the Morphine was wearing off and I was incredibly nauseated. The nurse came in and took my vitals and a receptionist came in to verify my information. Finally the on call OB came in to see how I was doing and go over what was going to happen. She ordered IV antibiotics for the infection, IV Phenergan for nausea, oral Reglan and oral Percocet. She called my husband’s urologist (Dr. Shep) whom we love to come over and do a consult. 

Friday 4:30 pm – Medications arrive! Thank the Lord! It had been 6 hours since my last dose of pain medicine and if you have ever experienced kidney stones you know how long of a time that is! The Phenergan made me sleepy so that distracted me while the pain meds kicked in. 

Friday 5 – 6 pm – Mom left at 5 and Chris didn’t arrive until 6 so I had an hour of down time. I did some channel surfing and tried to watch Jupiter Ascending. On pain meds it didn’t keep my attention. I will have to try it when not inebriated. 

Friday 6 pm – Chris arrived with some things I requested from home: my lamb baby stuffed animal (yes I am 5) and my Minions blanket as well as my bite guard, phone charger and fresh pants and undies (I wet myself remember? I will never forget). Shortly after he got to the hospital, Dr. Shep came in for our consult. He was pleased I was doing better than that morning. He explained how limited we were with what we could do to diagnose the stone. He said that in cases like mine they just like to sit on us and wait and see. He mentioned possibly having to go in surgically to remove the stone, but for now I would just be observed and I would have to pee in a “hat” and the nurse would strain my pee (yay…)

  
Friday 7 – 9 pm – Chris watched the UK basketball game on his phone while I watched Jurassic World. I was occasionally drifting off to sleep. At 8:30 the nurse brought in my medications. She gave me IV Phenergan, oral Reglan, oral Percocet, prenatal vitamin, folic acid and a Zoloft (since I left mine at home). Chris left to go home and take care of Zoey and I drifted off to sleep. 

I won’t bore you with the times I was woken up in the middle of the night. Between the nurse coming in to take vitals and give me more antibiotics at midnight, to her coming in every hour or so to strain my pee, to the many bathroom trips because I had 3 liters of fluid in me, to the IV pump going off because I needed IV Fluid Bag #4…I did not sleep well. My vitals that were taken in the middle of the night were extremely low but the nurse didn’t seem concerned. Also I was not allowed anything to eat or drink after midnight in case I needed surgery.  

Saturday 4 am – I woke up with pain again. It had been about 8 hours since my last dose of medication. This time my right side was hurting me. Then it banded across to my left side. I thought it might be how I was laying but it wasn’t. I waited for the next time the nurse came in to strain my pee to ask for meds. She gave me two Percocets around 4:30 am and I fell back asleep. 

Saturday 8 am – I was woken up when the nurse came in to take vitals. I actually felt somewhat refreshed and had no nausea. The pain meds were starting to wear off but it was manageable. I called Chris and he said he would take care of Zoey and be on his way. I called my parents to update them on how I was doing. One of Dr. Shep’s collegues came in to see how I was doing. He was impressed with my spirits and said I looked good and he wa glad my nausea was gone. He said I could eat again as he didn’t see a need for surgical intervention. He also said I was okay to be discharged when the OB cleared me. He didn’t know if that would be today or tomorrow. 

Saturday 9 am – Chris arrived and the nurse brought me breakfast of pancakes, bacon and fruit. I was actually able to eat and keep it down! The nurse came in and gave me my prenatal vitamins, folic acid, oral Reglan, oral Percocet, IV Antibiotics #3 and IV Fluid Bag #5. (Side note: with the amount of fluid they are giving me and how much I am drinking I am surprised that my urine was still bright/dark yellow. I guess I was severely dehydrated). 

Saturday 10 am – 12 pm – I fell asleep a few times and just tried to relax. We watched a few episodes of Law and Order while we waited for the OB to come and check on me. 

Saturday 12 pm – The on call OB came to check on me and was pleased with how well I was feeling. She said I could be discharged and she would send me home with scripts for Reglan and Percocet! The three bags of antibiotics should take care of the infection without a need for oral antibiotics.

Since being discharged I still haven’t passed the kidney stone but the pain is much more manageable. I think it will pass on the next 12 hours or so. I will sleep good tonight! It has been a very long 36 hours! I am just happy that baby is okay and the stress and pain has not harmed Mumble in any way. And I am of course glad that I am feeling better!! Thank you to everyone who kept us in their prayers and called to check up on us!

Few Weeks of Pregnancy and Ultrasound #1

So I know I have been a bad blogger and I haven’t posted in a few weeks, but honestly, today is the first day that I have felt somewhat human enough to sit down and write! 

Since my last post we had our first ultrasound. We had it moved up from 2/17 (my birthday!) to 2/12 because of my anxiety. There is ONE little bean in there, snuggled up nice and warm, with a heart rate of 125. At the scan I was 6 weeks and 5 days. I have a video of the whole appointment and I will upload that to YouTube sometime in the near future. 

  
Aside from being so tired and sick, I have been going back and forth about posting how I have been feeling because quite honestly, I feel like shit! I feel bad about writing how I am feeling because I am complaining. I am human and before I was pregnant I would judge pregnant women who would go on and on about how awful they feel. I would think to myself, “You should be so glad you are so sick! I would give anything to be feeling like you do! When I am pregnant, I won’t complain because I know how blessed I am and I will cherish every second of morning sickness!” Yeah…about that…I am now one of those women.

So far this pregnancy has not been easy. My morning sickness started as night sickness and actually started at 3 weeks 5 days…before our first positive HPT. Each day it has gotten slowly worse and has also started earlier. It has now become all day, all consuming and I can’t keep anything down. In the past 3 weeks I have lost 10lbs simply because I can’t eat or keep anything down. I tried all the home remedies: ginger ale, ginger tea, peppermint sticks, Preggie Pops, bland diet. You name it, I tried it. Nothing worked. At around 5 weeks my doctor had me start on Vitamin B6 and Unisom which are the medications in Diclegis (just saves me some bucks). That worked slightly for a little bit but the Unisom made me a zombie. I spent 18 hours on my birthday in bed just because I was so tired I could hardly move. 

  
Due to my weight loss and inability to even keep water down, I am now on 4mg of Zofran every 8 hours. I know there is some controversy surrounding this medication, but both my doctor and I feel that the benefits outweigh the risks in my situation. It can cause more damage for me and the baby to become dehydrated and malnourished. I started the Zofran on Friday and it had been a lifesaver! I still have nausea but it is much more manageable and I haven’t thrown up once. I am able to eat small meals and have even noticed I have an appetite! Hopefully the morning sickness will subside when we hit the second trimester in a few weeks!

Aside from morning sickness, I have a whole host of other symptoms. My boobs are very sore, as are my nipples. They are even sometimes itchy or give me sharp electric zings which is a very weird sensation. I am very tired. I get winded walking from my office to my car in the parking lot. I have had more intense dreams. There has been cramping on and off and occasionally some extra added pain on my right side. I am assuming this is stretching. I have had very minimal spotting. When I have, I can always contribute it to the Crinone because it’s always the morning after I bumped my cervix while inserting it. I now have the nose of a bloodhound. I smell everything and most of the time that is not a good thing. I also have had a metallic taste in my mouth on and off, nowadays it is almost consistently present. 

  
All pregnancy related symptoms aside, we have absolute crazy weather where I live and in the span of two weeks we went from having a tornado watch and being 60 degrees to having a snow storm and schools were closed, then back up to 70 degrees over the weekend and we are supposed to get snow tomorrow night!! Needless to say my allergies and sinuses are going crazy. I have had a bad cough for a few days and actually lost my voice yesterday. Over the weekend I had the hint of a small fever and it got up to 99.9, so we have been watching it diligently. 

We are currently 8 weeks and 2 days with a due date of October 2nd. We go for our second ultrasound on Thursday 2/25. We may have one more ultrasound after that before graduating from our RE’s office but I am not sure. I get to stop the Crinone once we reach 10 weeks, which will be 3/6 and that can’t come soon enough! I can’t wait to be done with it! And last but not least, we have our first OB appointment scheduled on 3/15!

FET#1 Update – Beta#3 Results

We had our third and final beta this morning and just got the results…9,685!!!

  
Our ultrasound was originally schedule on my birthday, 2/17. But after talking to the doctor about the anxiety I have been experiencing it has been moved up to 2/12. We will be 6 weeks and 6 days hen so hopefully we will hear a heartbeat (or two)! With those numbers, what do we think? One? Or two?

FET#1 Update – Beta#2 Results

We had our second beta yesterday and the results were 416!!! My beta double from 203 to 416 just like it was supposed to!! We are so happy! Our little miracle baby is growing!!

  
I will have a third beta next Wednesday 2/3 to make sure everything is still rising and then they will schedule my first ultrasound. It should be sometime the week of 2/15. It might even fall on my birthday 2/17!!! I will update more when I have a bit more energy! It’s so surreal that today we are 4 weeks and 5 days pregnant!!

FET#1 Update – Beta#1 Results

Going to make this short and sweet because I am exhausted!! Our blood results came back. Our beta is 203!!!

WE ARE OFFICIALLY PREGNANT!!

  
We have a second blood test on Wednesday and then our ultrasound will be scheduled in a few weeks.

I will do a post soon about my 2WW and what I did, how it went, any symptom spotting I did. But for now I am so freaking tired!! It’s time for the second nap of the day for me!