So I was going to wait to write this post until later this afternoon after the nurse or doctor calls with my estrogen levels and discusses retrieval date, but I am so emotional and upset right now I wanted to get this out there and hopefully you ladies will have some advice and positive stories to share.
I have been feeling so miserable that I was convinced that going in today we would have a LOT of follicles and they would be nice and big and we would be triggering tonight. Of course nothing goes according to plan and I think the reason I am so emotional is because the results were not what I expected them to be. They were not what I prepared for. This entire time the doctors have been so concerned with the risk of me getting OHSS I also assumed that I would have way too many follicles…right now I have 9 measurable follicles. That is less than on Tuesday. They are 20, 18, 16, 13, 13, 11, 11, 10 and 10. We had a different ultrasound tech and I swear there were some follicles on there that she didn’t measure. I know I am not a professional but I have looked at enough of these scans to know what I am seeing.
The good news is that I am not trending towards OHSS and we will most likely be able to do the fresh transfer as we had hoped instead of doing a frozen transfer. The bad news is that there are a lot less follicles than I had hoped for. I feel inadequate. I had 38 antral follicles and now only 9 are growing. Hopefully they are all mature. I just don’t know what to think right now. I know some women would be elated at that number and I feel somewhat selfish for being upset with it. I am trying to remain positive and look at the glass half full. I am thankful that I have the 9 follies growing. I just expected there to be more.
I am just at home trying to work until the doctor or nurse calls. I will feel better once I speak with them and they reassure me that these are good numbers. I will update with my estrogen level and what the plan is for the trigger after I get the phone call this afternoon! Please let me know what your follicle sizes were, follicle count, how many were retrieved and mature and how many embryos made it! I need some reassurance that this is a good number! Sticky baby dust to everyone!
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As a non-IVFer, I have absolutely no advice, but just wanted to let you know I’m thinking about you. I’m sorry your follicle count is less then you had hoped for!
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I think that you are probably right and there are more follicles in there but they are just focusing on the ones that can grow in numbers. I think 2 days before my egg retrieval I also had many that weren’t where they were supposed to be exactly but by the time of the retrieval they grew much larger. I think also, with them knowing that you are at a higher risk for OHSS they didn’t push the meds too hard, maybe? Trust me when I say, you don’t want to have OHSS…it’s painful! And dangerous! You’ve got many good follicles in there that are great sizes already so I’m sure you will do great! Happy thoughts, positive thoughts!
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Thank you for reassuring me. I just talked to the nurse and will stim tonight or tomorrow and then trigger Sunday for retrieval on Tuesday
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Oh yeah, they will still be growing until retrieval! All is good! Positive thinking! Xoxo
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Hey there. I had worse numbers than that. I was a slow grower. And they got 12 eggs in the end – more than we’d ever tracked on the ultrasound.
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Oh my gosh!! That makes me feel so much better you have no idea!! Thank you thank you thank you for sharing!!
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I am the same… I am so new to the process that I don’t know what to expect. You have to realise there’s such variation in people’s experience and how their body reacts to the drugs. When I read other people’s stats it always makes me feel mine are worse than usual! You just have to trust what the docs and the embryologists tell you and try not to worry too much about having the same or more than other people. Some people have OHSS which means they get a lot more eggs. It seems everyone had more than me! I hope you have a successful egg collection!
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