So I was going to wait to write this post until later this afternoon after the nurse or doctor calls with my estrogen levels and discusses retrieval date, but I am so emotional and upset right now I wanted to get this out there and hopefully you ladies will have some advice and positive stories to share.
I have been feeling so miserable that I was convinced that going in today we would have a LOT of follicles and they would be nice and big and we would be triggering tonight. Of course nothing goes according to plan and I think the reason I am so emotional is because the results were not what I expected them to be. They were not what I prepared for. This entire time the doctors have been so concerned with the risk of me getting OHSS I also assumed that I would have way too many follicles…right now I have 9 measurable follicles. That is less than on Tuesday. They are 20, 18, 16, 13, 13, 11, 11, 10 and 10. We had a different ultrasound tech and I swear there were some follicles on there that she didn’t measure. I know I am not a professional but I have looked at enough of these scans to know what I am seeing.
The good news is that I am not trending towards OHSS and we will most likely be able to do the fresh transfer as we had hoped instead of doing a frozen transfer. The bad news is that there are a lot less follicles than I had hoped for. I feel inadequate. I had 38 antral follicles and now only 9 are growing. Hopefully they are all mature. I just don’t know what to think right now. I know some women would be elated at that number and I feel somewhat selfish for being upset with it. I am trying to remain positive and look at the glass half full. I am thankful that I have the 9 follies growing. I just expected there to be more.
I am just at home trying to work until the doctor or nurse calls. I will feel better once I speak with them and they reassure me that these are good numbers. I will update with my estrogen level and what the plan is for the trigger after I get the phone call this afternoon! Please let me know what your follicle sizes were, follicle count, how many were retrieved and mature and how many embryos made it! I need some reassurance that this is a good number! Sticky baby dust to everyone!