I don’t even know if I can coherently express my feelings over the past few days. But here it goes!
Since coming back from ROTR both Chris and I have been sick. We live in the Ohio Valley, which if you don’t know, is the worst place for people with allergies. My throat started hurting on Monday and Chris’s started Tuesday. We have both been miserable with sore throats, sinus congestion, lethargy, headaches and body aches. Chris has been worse than me and he went to the doctor yesterday just to be on the safe side. We don’t want anythingn delaying this cycle and we keep gettig thrown curve balls! The doctor went ahead and prescribed him a Zpak as a precaution due to our cycle starting. He did ask the doctor about me and the doc said since I am not as bad to just treat the symptoms. So it’s been lots of fluid, rest and mucinex for me. We have been going to bed at like 7pm!!
Today we are both feeling better and I think are on the mend! Thank goodness! On top of the sickness, AF decided to show up. She started a little on Tuesday but came full force yesterday. Maybe it’s because of being on consecutive birth control for 6 weeks or maybe my body knows it’s preparing for a baby. Whichever it is, this AF is awful! Not only is it bad physically, but I have definitely had more mood swings than normal. So that coupled with being sick has made me REALLY fun to be around the past few days.
I have gone from feeling in pain and frustrated to feeling loving and maternal and taking care of sick hubby. I have been so physically tired but unable to sleep. At times I have felt lonely. Today I felt scared. I still feel scared and anxious. I also feel excited and hopeful. Admist all of the craziness of emotions, I have also felt immense gratitude. Yesterday I was honored with a STAR award. These awards are given out to people who are nominated for their hard work. My boss honored me with one in front of my department for my hard work on a large project that we presented on last month to upper management. I was truly touched. It was completely unexpected and really made me feel appreciated.
Today, just a few hours ago, I got upset and started crying for virtually no reason at all. Then again cried 30 minutes ago. I am now eating all my feelings with Chinese food. Hope to get some sleep tonight because tomorrow our life changes!! Here we go!!